Today my boyfriend asked me to go to lunch with him to red robin. (that evil, evil place!)
I ended up ordering 2 shots of 151, a sprite (not diet coke) and spinach and art. dip! I got tippsy and full! I was pissed at myself. But super happy he wanted to take me out for lunch. I love him, and I love making him happy, and I cant help but think me being skinny will make him happier with me. Hell, ill be happier with me. (even though he says im not fat, and he loves me for who I am) thats just what their told they have to say. If I were him, I'd be like, "stop eating you fat cow... look at your thighs, you disgust me!" hes not mean to me like I am to myself. I bought some fiber powder to put in my water once a day. my brother told me it would absorb some of the food I eat and ill "pass it" later. =)

Well enough hating myself for what I shouldnt have done, right? Theres always tomorrow...
And thanks for the comments! =) Everyone on here is so great, you make me feel normal, like there's someone out there who gets me and is going though all of my emotions and feelings with me so I'm never really alone. And GREAT tip on the eating off his plate! Love it! I would feel like a pig if i kept asking for some of his and that will make me not want to.

Great tip for low cal meals...
3/4 cup raw brown rice, 1 1/2 cups water, cut broccoli, tomatos, carrots, and 1 can cream of broccoli soup in a cassrole dish and cook for 1 hour.
its a great health low cal dish everyone will love and you wont hate yourself for having no more then a cup of.